it's okay, sir, i understand.

this guy thinks he had it bad. well, i guess he does have a balding, pear-shaped head. but other than that, i bet his life is a breeze. he's probably just looking at a squirrel getting run over by a car. (and if so, why is he not leaping for joy?)

anyway, where was i going with this? oh yeah. life. life is running away from me right now. i can't even imagine all the things that will transpire in the next month, let alone the next two. all of a sudden i'm supposed to finish things at school and get my masters and move and go to italy and come back and move again and find a job and make money and be a real person. i don't think i'm cut out for this. at least not in such a short amount of time.

have i seriously lived in new jersey for two years already? i find this to be an utter lie. and although living in pittsburgh again will be lovely for many reasons, i certainly do not want to stay there. i will miss my friends here and my family and my voice teacher and the ocean and my favorite coffee shop. i will not miss the expensive rent and tuition and strange neighbors and weirdo church. but other than that, i like this area pretty well. i'm sure that pittsburgh will have great things to offer eventually--it's just a matter of finding them. and how the heck do you find a job for the summer when you won't actually be living in a place until july? all of the postings are for current hiring. yipes. sistah's gotta get a plan. but in the meantime, she'll just order cute shoes for herself and hope it all goes away.

also, i'm forever unlucky in the ways of love, so i've decided to write a book about it. many of you may know that i wrote a lot of a book when i worked for the government in dc after junior year. that was good for a while till i had to start making up stuff and it got out of control. but now i think i have enough fodder from my real life experiences to make something. even if it's only a book for myself and a few close friends. my brain can't handle storing all of these stories any longer.

so yeah, i'm stressed to the max and trying to figure out what to do with my life. however, i'm not a total case yet, as I'm still managing to have lots of fun, including several trips to new york and fab dinner parties. also, there's a chance i may get to go see dave sedaris perform live....um yes please.